why.. do you still talk with them, i don’t get it.. i don’t even have the full story & it makes me mad to see them.. i’m not judging or advising or anything i just.. it makes me sad to see you sad.
cant believe ive been owned by a fucking plant
Last night I thought I kissed the loneliness from out your belly button. I thought I did, but later you sat up, all bones and restless hands, and told me there is a knot in your body that I cannot undo. I never know what to say to these things. “It’s okay.” “Come back to bed.” “Please don’t go away again.” Sometimes you are gone for days at a time and it is all I can do not to call the police, file a missing person’s report, even though you are right there, still sleeping next to me in bed. But your eyes are like an empty house in winter: lights left on to scare away intruders. Except in this case I am the intruder and you are already locked up so tight that no one could possibly jimmy their way in. Last night I thought I gave you a reason not to be so sad when I held your body like a high note and we both trembled from the effort.
Some people, though, are sad against all reason, all sensibility, all love. I know better now. I know what to say to the things you admit to me in the dark, all bones and restless hands. “It’s okay.” “You can stay in bed.” “Please come back to me again.
last night i had a gr8 dream involving october & the plot of a hot sex pollen sycandre fic i read recently. & in the dream i literally acknowledged ‘this dream is ripping the plot right from that one pokémon fic’ & october (sexpollened) was like ‘does it matter’ ‘no not at all, just commenting’
i was gonna send this as an ask but i still cba to pc so here it goes
i really thought things might be better after finals, feel better, thered be ~some~ sense of relief but my muscles are just as trnse as they were a week ago, my heart beating just as fast for no reason, still feeling like a rubber ball on a cliff, flattened at the nadir of its bounce, everything under pressure & if it ever releases it’ll only be a moment before it all plummets again irrevocably
i’m meant to clean my room & make my bed today but [pulls up blanket] thats a lot to ask of someone who cant even stand the feel of clothes rn wouldnt u say
do you ever just get a vibe that someone has a crush on you and then you’re not sure if they actually do or if you’re just really really self-absorbed